I found an Editor I really liked, we seemed to click via email and the books she had edited in the past were similar to mine. So we decided on a date, I sent her my manuscript now…..I’m just waiting and waiting…..She said it would take her two weeks to get thru it all and its only been one so far but let me tell you it already seems like an eternity.
Not only do I want to get thru this final stage quickly because I want to get my book published ASAP but more than anything, I want to know what someone thinks of the book outside of my family and friends – obviously I think its awesome.
I wish she would give me some kind of crumb of her thoughts, just to know if she likes it, loves it, or thinks I’m an idiot for trying this writing thing.
Even at thumbs up emoji would work at this point.
So here I go, trying to patiently wait for her to send me my manuscript back to know her overall thoughts. And by patiently waiting I mean I am checking my email every two seconds.
I really thought this whole writing thing would be easier than it turned out to be. I had a story, a great story – at least I think so- and I knew exactly what was going to happen in each scene. So, it wouldn’t be hard to put all that into actual words that flowed and moved seamlessly from one scene to the other right?
So So SO WRONG
After I wrote my first draft I realized being a writer is so much more than having a story. Its having a talent for making people feel thru the written word. Most people hone that talent thru years and years of writing, so how can I compare or even catch up. This is my first book and I want to get it out there but honestly I feel…inadequate compared to all the other amazing authors out there.
When I read other books, the thoughts of the characters – the emotions the Author makes me feel, I doubt I have that talent. I tried, I tried really really hard in my book to make people feel and see what my characters are doing but Im not sure I actually achieved that goal or if I just ended up with 70K jumbled words that I think make sense.
I guess I just thought if I had a story. A good story. I could make my dream of being a writer come true. Sadly I learned its going to take a lot more than just a good story.